As I flip through my old-little-green-diary that I wrote back in Kuantan when I was doing my pre-degree, (it's a writing project where my writing lecturer did ask all of us to write up a diary where when it comes to the finale, it will be collected and we will be graded based on the writings of those diaries, she called it journal and we will be gaining 20% of our marks from it but unfortunately, she did not collect it, she don't even have a look at it. There were only two or three times in the classroom that she asked for a volunteer to read up the diary and I did volunteer myself once. I was annoyed at first because I've put such a lot of efforts to write such a diary. I never kept a diary before. A well-organized one, I mean. But somehow, I am thankful to her, because I have started to build and develop a good writing habit from there. Thank you, Madam B!). then I saw one of the lyrics in the lyrics section. I have a few sections within the diary; the life that I am engaging with, the people, the future as well as the lyrics for thought, a little bit of this and that, and what not. I guess it's not something new to be shared. It's the "Only Hope" song by Mandy Moore from A Walk To Remember.
::There's a song that's inside of my soul::It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again::I'm awake in the infinite cold::But you sing to me over and over and over again::So I lay my head back down::And I lift my hands::And pray to be only yours::I pray to be only yours::I know now you're my only hope::Sing to me the song of the stars::Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again::When it feels like my dreams are so far::Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again::So I lay my head back down::And I lift my hands::And pray to be only yours::I pray to be only yours::I know now you're my only hope::I give you my destiny::I'm giving you all of me::I want your symphony::Singing in all that I am::At the top of my lungs::I'm giving it back::So I lay my head back down::And I lift my hands::And pray to be only yours::I pray to be only yours::I pray to be only yours::I know now you're my only hope::
S.W.E.E.T. isn't it? I still would cry myself everytime I watch the movie, though it's been like a hundred times I've been watching it. The same thing goes when I watch 50 First Dates. Is there such thing? I mean does that "I'll love you, forever" really exist? We know forevers come and gone. At least I notice. Nothing could last forever, I suppose. Or am I too realistic? I leave you with the thoughts.
[note: Another song that I keep on repeating and listening to for the last 24hours until now is "I'm Yours" by Jason Mraz.
- It makes me feel happy inside.
- It makes me feel loved.
- It makes me feel so right.
I feel like lari-lari, golek-golek tengah padang, just like when I listen to "Kiss Me" by Sixpence None The Ritcher. Pretty cool, it is :) ]