Thursday, August 27, 2009

Dugaan Bulan Ramadhan

7.15 p.m.
It's raining heavily outside. I have got absolutely nothing to eat. My computer is not functioning and I can't afford to buy a new one and nobody seems to care. Bagi sikit simpati pun dah cukup, I am not asking for more. I am emotionally abused. I have got nobody to go to, nobody to talk to, and absolutely nobody cares about me, not even the person that used to be sooo in love with me. That includes Andres as well. I don't get a single message through my phone and I think I'm going to throw them away soon, very soon, no kidding. I have got fuckload of assignments to be done, together with the tests, not to mention the presentations and those are torturing enough. I have got snobbish classmates who downgraded my friend and I and the humiliation was unbearable. [To the snobbish classmates, though you are among the dean's list students, that does not reserve you the right to underestimate other people. Orang lain pun dapat dean's list jugak, tapi tak berlagak pun macam kau. Nanti kalau tiba-tiba tuhan tarik balik nikmat bijak yang Dia bagi kat kau, baru kau tahu. Bila kami tanya kau face to face, kau buat-buat baik pulak. You suck million times, I am telling you now, bitch. You've lost my respect. I have failed the test by saying this in the month of Ramadhan, I know.] I simply had lost my patience and my sanity. I lost my appetite too, I hardly eat these days. I am in tense, I don't get enough sleep, stupid pimples keep growing on and on and on and it's painful, dark circles are now visible, I am feeling under the weather; having flu and cough and mild fever and people keep on giving me hard times. I am sick and tired of all these. Now that I wish I could vanish just like that. Tuhan tolong ampunkan Syahirah. But these are too much.

10 comments:

Qasiyh said...

woh kakak,i'm alone too this weekend...
but i find it so peaceful...
mgkin sbb i slalu berteman b4

fareHana said...

sabarla kak shi. biasala tu manusia. some people kalau dia asyik kat atas, die lupa yg dia boleh jatuh ke bawah someday. don't feel sick about her, she's not worth it.

~Am Sya~ said...

lame rasenyer x jenguk2 blog u~ :)

laki cikgu kimia said...

kamu kene kuat kak shi! kak shi?

Syarifah Nur Athirah said...

dear sis..... i've change my blog url to http://babepim.blogspot.com

criestz said...

we all still syg kamo kan..
masing2 bz lor.. huhu
tamo nanges2 ea...
nah tisu =)

RinG said...

chill la! sometimes it is just the puasa blues. lepas raya nnti hopefully you'll get better with the assignments and friends, classmates, and stupid pimples. lol.

oh ya, Selamat Hari Raya

Edna Sinn said...

hye kakak,i've changed my url to ednasinn.blogspot.com.it's qasiyh anyway...

penanya (?) said...

everyone facing hard time now...

global-warming
economy crisis
kueh tart
Final Year Project
Celcom Problem
Maxis Cekik-Darah
lanjut usia
macam2 lagi lah!

so mandi la lama2.. reduce tension mungkin

SyAhiRah LaLAla said...

qasiyh: lucky u u feel that way. i dont. isk. apakah masalah i ni sebenarnya? *stressed out*

farehana: so true la dear. hope u n i tak jadik macam tu lah kan. isk.

amsya: hello. meh meh jenguk jenguk. i'll go melawat urs after this k :D

lakicikgukimia: ye. saya sedang membesar dgn kuat dan sihatlah ni. oh kak shi pon boleh :p

syarifahnurathirah: i think uv changed it back,,havent u? :D

criestz: oh thank you *terharu*

ring: ya ya. things get a lot better ths days ;)

ednasinn: checked! :D

penanya(?): mandi lama2? i like! bernas tuuu. tq! :D