If only I could pour my heart out.
If only I could make you realize.
If only we could turn back time.
If only there would be another life.

FINALLY!

oh yes! thank god that I finally managed to get back my account! I lost my password anyway.
So yeah, I have a lot to tell as usual. But I'm at work, so to update blog at work sounds not noble. Shall I continue writing once I reach home or whenever I feel like. Eheh. But yeah, I'm sooooooo extremely happy that I can't have access to this account back! It's been so long! *big smile*
And to read back all of my writings at this age made me smile just to know and realize that how much I have grown up and went through. I'm just proud to say this to myself, that till this very moment, I survived, all the way :)

Relieved

 I think God loves me that He sent me bunch of people who really care. And thoughtful. And kind. (besides supportive family.) Thanks darling girls. I really appreciate it. I have just realized that having a few nice friends is more meaningful than having lotsssssss of friends who just don't care. But to make enemy is never a good resort.

Thoughtful Amalina and Kind Adibah :)

Caring Yuyu

Ehem. couple of the year ni. Lovely Mimi n the bf

My Mr. Notty [dikala muda remaja]

Understanding Rain

Makan-makan dgn Rain

Hugging Yuyu.

Hari meneman Amalina survey barangan perkahwinan bersama Adibah.

Hanging out sambil mengusik the sweet couple.

Thank God for them.

I know

I know my status on FB was controversial. I just can't hold it anymore. Because I think all this while I have been very patient, even when my precious belongings were thrown away just like that, and my other stuff were used for soooooooo many times without my permission.  I believe asking permission and respecting others' belongings are universal values that we should hold onto until we die. Or shall I say "I don't fucking care if you don't practice those good values as long as you stay out of my way" as to reveal the selfish part of me. Maybe you were thinking that I didn't notice it but for god's sake I did. For all times. It's just that I hate to bring up issues like this because I treat you like family but you just went overboard. You took advantage on me. You should feel ashamed of yourself.

My December :)

Heyya!

1. I'm getting married! (in two to three years of time. haha. Insyaallah.)
2. I drove. Oh yes. I DROVE a car! It was last two weeks, the boyfriend's car, from Kuantan to Karak. And I can't stop smiling for fifteen minutes once I hand in the key back to him. I was really proud of myself that I finally managed to make use of the used-to-be-for-display-purpose-only license. I really can't describe the feeling; it's the mixture of excitement, nervous, enthusiasm, and proud all at once but it was a pleasure experience I would say. For the rest of people in the entire world, it really means nothing, except for me. Thanks for making me believing, Mr. Sweetheart. And thanks too for believing in me, risking your car and yourself. Haha. I thought of asking him to capture my picture as I drive but I didn't say it out loud. I need to focus, remember? :P But I'll still put pictures, don't worry.
3. It took me about an hour and half to reach Karak with the range of 90 to 110 speed. I was forbidden to go beyond 110. Not that bad anyway I think. I got the chance to overtake and park the car too. Haha. Biarlah, nak cerita jugak! Once the boyfriend took over, he sped up, so that we could reach Shah Alam on planned time. "Hoi hoi encik, apakah u bawak laju sangat ni?" "Oh I nak cover balik yang u bawak slow tadi." Poyonya anda encik! ZzzzzZZzzzzz.
4. I transformed the cute CCQ into a cargo container once we reached Shah Alam. Kasihan anda, CCQ. But we bought the cute CCQ new perfume as reward. Hehs. 
5. We stopped at R&R Seremban for lunch at 4. (it's so weird that we didn't take even a picture that day. Maybe because we're in hurry. The family is moving in new house on the same day.) On the way back, the bf asked if I want tangerine when he saw a stall selling it. I was touched because he still remembers that I like tangerine, the fact that I told him a couple of years back when we chatted. Sorry, I cannot help. It's just another part of me. I ended up smiling wide showing my crooked teeth. And he said I was crazy. 
6. I'm so happy that his family is now living across the street. So it makes us neighbours! Haha. The good thing is that it enables us to go out for one last time before he went back for work, once a month.
7. Oh yes, the week before, I went out with little sister to watch Narnia. I wanted to watch Harry Potter but I watched Narnia, instead. I didn't enjoy Narnia this time. I wonder whether it's just me because I'm reaching 25 or is it just because the storyline is now predicted? or is it because it's just plain boring? Rapunzel was a bit more entertaining as compared to Narnia I think. Despite the fact that I didn't fancy Narnia anymore now, (not like Dekha and Aizad, they liked the story well, still) the day went well as I got 10% discount for coffee out of a sincere smile. What a wonderful world :) 
8. Last week on Tuesday, I went out to meet Cikgu Amizanah. We chatted and shopped. It was a great catching up session. We laughed all the way. She now acts out the characteristics of a teacher, really. I'm impressed!
9. I spent this weekend with my dear Rain. The details will be posted tomorrow because I had to wait for Rain to online and transfer the pictures we took. So for the time being, ini sahajalah gambar yang mampu di muat-naik :)

berpanas for Narnia! hoh. next to me is my sister anyway.

Christmas madness people! hehs.

i think i would buy this shirt if it's cheaper by 10rm.

oh this one was taken after my sister and i watched Rapunzel.

with Cikgu Amizanah garang :D Meet Cikgu Amizanah everyone.

Ini sesi membeli-belah bersama cikgu Amizanah la :D Saje nak bagi Mimi panas :P

Oh ini lunch date before Aizad went back. Till we meet again, Mr.

Nah nah. I put, as requested, dengan ingatan tulus ikhlas :)

My Day. My Way.

It is 2.30 a.m. and I am still wide awake. I know my Mr. Superman dislikes the fact that I do stay up to catch up with the blogs and other virtual activities. But darling, I do need this once in a while, it's kind of therapy for me. I hope you don't mind ;)This is going to be a very short and brief post. (konon). hehs. Let's go by number. I love them numbers :P

1. I have completed my degree (I bet you are gonna cry if I let you know the painful hardships that I faced, the struggles that I went through especially during this final semester. Sobs.) and officially unemployed. It does not worry me at all for the past three weeks but it's started to bother me when all of my friends are just too busy hunting for jobs and some of them had already been accepted at firms in various fields and finding job has become a hot issue (who got this who failed that sort of things you know) and it freaks me out. Why on earth would they have to kill the joy? haisy.
2. I am enjoying the moment of pampering myself with free food and shelter, handsome amount of pocket money (which gets thinner day by day) together with long hours of sleep (they come in a package you know) while I still can.
3. I am still madly in love with that Mr. after hundred of days (I wish to type "years" hehs) together. And I love PDA. If you don't, you're just being jealous I suppose :P No, I'm serious.
4. I bought several new outfits without giving them proper thought and I ended up disfavoring them (together with a tinge of regret thinking that I could possibly afford another trip to any domestic destination of choice for a one last perfect vacation of the year) and I thought of letting them go but.... (yeah there's a lot of butss here. and "plus" and "because" too. Sigh sigh. )
5. I went out with my friend mimi and my second cousin yanie and had a blast. I am longing for such girls-day-out for quite long.
6. I still think that she's just so mean. And there were three mean "she" and a few other "bitches" that I had encountered for the past four years. And I wish neither to meet another mean "she" nor "bitch" just so you know how much I hate drama and the drama queen ya.
7. I am still random and cynical. And I do curse occasionally. Still. Not change.
8. I am still at failure to organize my writing in a good flow. I jump here and there. Often.
9. I miss the lover. Therefore I decided to upload his picture here. (Alasan. Hehs.)

Presenting...Mr Love Love. Anda tak suka tak apa. Saya suka. Haha. 

10. Just because I had fun just now, I've decided to (again) upload some pictures we took. Together with    my "sweet november" moment :)

 the power of three

 the "fun and witty" us (konon) :P

 the beautiful background :)

 the beautiful with the brain ladies (ahem.) :P

 the excited me. lol.

 the beautiful scenery :)

 love them colors!

 the penyibuk me :P Introducing yanie my second cousin everyone :D

 fly me kite!

 saya nak jawab!

 the happy us

 the mengada me

     the happy three friends :D

the sulky boyfriend. eh! :D

meng sms untuk memujuk the merajuk encik boyfriend. eheh. ILU :-*

Yeah. It's all-about-me day ya. Jangan menyampah pls. The sweet november moment will be posted in the next post la. Otherwise this blog will turn into a photoblog pula. Huhu. Till then. Taaa~

hello again.

ok. i should admit that i am hyper, due to the excessive caffeine i consumed today. now that i am so eager to write. ah whateverrr.

[p/s: mysteries never fail to excite me. by all means. just be careful mysteries and mysterious,, i will hunt you down. one fine day. ]